Sunday, March 13, 2011

Is it Contagious???

Ok maybe I am the only one that feels this way. AND if your reading this, please do not take offense to this. I can not complain about the awesome support that I have right here in Fort Riley and also back home. There are people that are always there for me. No matter what time. Now I also understand that it's not just my soldier that is deployed. He is not just my husband, but someones son, brother, nephew, cousin, grandson, friend etc.... I know that people all deal with things in their own way as well.
I just cant help but feel like some people think they are going to catch my "DEPLOYMENT" or something from me. Either that or they really don't care for me much. Either way the situation sucks. Me I can handle, the kids on the other hand are pretty bummed about it all. So is my husband. Me and him had a long talk about this right before he went on mission. I guess we came to the conclusion that even though it sucks, it's not worth it. Just smile and wave I guess. Deal with it the best we can and get around the situation. We thought it was best not to say anything in particular to anyone. But, you all know me and someday I might break. Aside from all that, I may be able to keep quiet, but I have to vent sometimes too!
I thought that when your husband left people were closer to you, not just cut you out all the way. I just can't help by feel used I guess. Perhaps these people talked to me just to get information on Dave, or to talk to the kids. I don't really wanna play nice anymore though. As i sit here and think about all this, I can't help but want to say..... "If you don't like me, don't pretend to!" He has been trying to be nice about this as well. I am sure between us we can get around this. He is better at this whole smile and wave then I am though. Even though he tried to be polite about it once already.
I just want everyone to know that you can catch the flu, chickenpox, or a cold, but no matter what why you look at it.... You can't catch DEPLOYMENT. The sad feeling that the wife has from time to time will not lay you up in bed for a week just because you called. And you will not magically wake up to an empty bed because your civilian husband magically disappeared overseas because you wanted to drop a line to the wife of a soldier. If anyone out there knows wives and kids that are holding up the house while their soldier is away.... what the hurt in calling from time to time.

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